Wow! I just celebrated my birthday number 38. I see no reason to lie about this. I have earned every one of those years (and every one of those gray hairs). I have been looking back on the past year (actually year-and-a-half). It has been an interesting time. I saw my nephew turn 18, I had a death in the family, had health scares of people close to me. I was reacquainted with Yoga; a past love. And in June, I moved out of the house in Portland that I have been living in for 2 years and working in for 1. I moved back to Corvallis, OR into a funky old little apartment with my Chihuahua, and started renting space in Monroe Avenue Salon to resume my work providing Massage Therapy, Full Service Waxing, Facials, and Osmosis Skin Care.
Life needs to have major changes every once in a while to stay exciting. I think the thing that has pushed me through has been learning to be easy on myself, remembering that I am only capable of doing one thing well at a time (well being the operative word here...) I try to step back, dis-attach, and know that there is a bigger picture (even if I can't see what it is) instead of punishing myself for what I do wrong... Non judgment... easier said than done, right?
At the end of the day it's all about baby steps. Now, as the school year gears up to begin and Corvallis will be swarming with college students, it's easy to feel panic start creep into the edges of my mind... Have I thought of everything? Am I doing everything I'm supposed to be doing? Now I actually have to work. And at the same time I will be commuting to Portland for yoga teacher training. The me of 5 years ago would not be enjoying this. But the me of today knows that by "dis-attaching" I am given the chance to enjoy the ride; to be present.
I am ready for the next leg of this adventure. Bring it!